underneath
previously unreleased
words and music by bekah hayes
 
All children must grow up, we’re powerless against it
with all the flowerless boxes we bury.
Oh, the fits we’d throw, and all the bottles.
Does the ocean have a mother? What is pain?

Will you break from me when I start crying?
All the lies that I tell are true.
And when you break the skin, there’s blood underneath it.
They threw my scissors away to give me life.

And a flame grows. And the car is parked on the lawn.
And I say that I love you.
Please love me—don’t give me reasons.
Don’t give me bandages and lies.

When I was seven, I fell in the water
fully clothed, the winter ice formed all around me.
I watched the world go on, babes in the sunlight,
and all the warmth I could not feel, it seared me.

And the joints groan. And our hands know.
And I say that I love you.
I’ve waited. My breath is bated.
Don’t give me bandages and lies.